Day 18 – Fear – An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart – Discerning Hearts Podcasts


An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart:
Prepare your heart for Christ through Scripture, the saints, and the gentle practice of daily listening.

Part Three: Listening Through Trials, Weakness, and Silence

DAY 18 – Fear

“When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.”
Psalm 56:3 RSV


Fear touches every human heart. We long for security, assurance, and answers. We want to know that we are safe and that there is a solution waiting for what troubles us. Yet fear, when left unchecked, can cripple the very movement of faith that would lead us toward those things. It narrows our vision, boxes us into what we know, and blinds us to the new and unexpected ways God desires to act in our lives.

There is a fear that protects, the kind that keeps us from danger or awakens the conscience to sin. This holy fear is the beginning of wisdom. But there is also a fear that confines. It is the fear that doubts God’s goodness, hesitates to trust His timing, and clings to control. That fear keeps us from receiving grace.

The discerning heart must learn to recognize both kinds. Christ calls us not to eliminate fear but to bring it to Him, where love can transform it. “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.” (1 John 4:18) The love of God does not always remove uncertainty. It fills it with His presence. Faith grows when we choose to move toward Him even when the outcome is unclear.

Advent reveals this mystery: divine love enters the world where human fear reigns, and through Christ, teaches the heart to trust again. In Him, we learn that faith is not the denial of fear, but the act of bringing our fear into His presence. When the heart surrenders its need for control, grace restores peace and confidence. God does not remove every uncertainty, but He remains with us in it, guiding and protecting us with His love.

Journey with the Saints –

St. Pio of Pietrelcina

“Pray, hope, and don’t worry. Worry is useless. God is merciful and will hear your prayer.”
St. Pio of Pietrelcina, Letters, Vol. III

For St. Padre Pio, fear was not something to wrestle with alone but something to entrust to God. He taught that peace begins when we stop trying to manage everything by our own strength. The things that belong to God—the outcome of events, the timing of answers, the care of those we love—must be placed back in His hands.

Pio endured misunderstanding, illness, persecution, and interior trial, yet his words remained steady: “Fear nothing. God is with you, and He is more powerful than all the evil in the world.” His calm came from knowing that God’s providence governs every circumstance.

He shows the discerning heart that faith does not erase fear. It transforms it. When fear is lifted to God in prayer, grace renews strength and trust begins to grow again.

Reflection for the Listening Heart

Where am I clinging to certainty or control?
Where do I demand answers rather than trust God’s unfolding?

Fear often disguises itself as the desire for safety. But when it leads me to shrink from grace, it becomes a chain that holds me back from the very assurance I seek. God does not want to silence our fears as much as He wants to meet us within them.

The discerning heart learns to tell the difference between the fear that protects and the fear that confines. Faith listens for God’s invitation to move toward love, even when the path is uncertain.

Ask yourself: What fear keeps me boxed into the possible I can imagine, instead of the endless possibilities God can bring?

A Simple Practice for Today

Choose one verse from today’s Scripture, perhaps “When I am afraid, I put my trust in You.”
Sit with it for one quiet minute and say, “Speak, Lord, I am listening.”
Later in the day, pause and take a slow breath. Say, “Lord, free me from the fear that limits Your work in me.”
Let both moments open your heart to the greater possibilities of faith.

Prayer

Lord Jesus, You know my longing for certainty and control.
When I am afraid, teach me to trust You more than my own plans.
Through the witness of St. Padre Pio, help me to pray with confidence, to hope with peace,
and to believe that Your love holds possibilities beyond what I can imagine.
Let Your perfect love cast out fear and make my heart ready for Your coming.
Come Lord Jesus.
Amen.


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An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart with Kris McGregor visit here


Citations for Day 18

Psalm 56:3–4 (RSV)
1 John 4:18 (RSV)
St. Padre Pio, Letters, Vol. III

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WOM18 – The Gift of Grace – The Way of Mystery with Deacon James Keating – Discerning Hearts Podcast


The Gift of Grace – The Way of Mystery with Deacon James Keating

Deacon James Keating describes the spiritual journey from attachment to sin into a life shaped by Christ’s light. This shift usually begins through pain or restlessness that awakens a desire for something deeper. As a person moves away from sin and leans into virtue, the presence of Christ becomes clearer, forming the mind and heart through prayer, scripture, worship, and especially the Eucharist. Over time, a person stops acting in isolation and instead makes choices with Christ dwelling within, seeking His guidance in every moral question. This inner communion brings freedom, joy, and clarity, not constraint, because the Christian life becomes a relationship of deepening love rather than instant transformation.

Worship shapes moral life because it immerses the soul in Christ’s life, death, and resurrection. Practical discernment includes immediately handing temptations over to Christ before they take root in the imagination and lead the will astray. All ethical questions are to be placed within the mystery of Christ rather than secular ideologies. A well-formed conscience draws from scripture, the Eucharist, and the Church’s teaching authority, which safeguards doctrine and prevents confusion born from private theories or theological trends. True renewal in the Church arises where Catholics rediscover authentic teaching, which challenges one toward holiness and aligns life with Christ rather than cultural pressures.


Discerning Hearts Reflection Questions

  1. How has Christ begun to bring light into areas of your life where you once felt restless or dissatisfied?
  2. In what ways does your participation in the Eucharist shape the choices you make throughout the week?
  3. Where do you still rely on your own independence rather than inviting Christ into your decisions?
  4. How quickly do you turn to Christ when you notice temptation arising within you?
  5. What helps you enter worship not as a routine, but as a living encounter with God?
  6. How do you place your daily moral questions within the mystery of Christ rather than cultural or personal preferences?
  7. In what ways could your conscience be more deeply formed by scripture and the Church’s teaching?
  8. How does your relationship with Christ affect the way you evaluate what is truly good or meaningful?
  9. What practices help you remain attentive to Christ dwelling within you throughout the day?
  10. How is God inviting you to grow in humility when receiving teaching or correction within the Church?

Deacon James Keating, Ph.D., is a professor of Spiritual Theology and serves as a spiritual director at Kenrick Glennon Seminary in St. Louis, MO.

Check out Deacon Keating’s “Discerning Heart” page

A Christmas Novena – Day 1 – Discerning Hearts Podcast


A Christmas Novena – Day 1 – Joy

O Lord, infant Jesus, fill us with Joy! The birth of any child is a cause for joy and so much more is the birth of You our Savior. We pray in union with Mary, Your mother, for a greater joy this Christmas.

Divine Infant,
after the wonders of Your birth in Bethlehem,
You wished to extend Your infinite mercy to the whole world
by calling the Wise Men by heavenly inspiration to Your crib,
which was in this way changed into a royal throne.
You graciously received those holy men
who were obedient to the Divine call
and hastened to Your feet.
They recognized and worshipped You as Prince of Peace,
the Redeemer of mankind,
and the very Son of God.

Show us also Your goodness and almighty power.
Enlighten our minds,
strengthen our wills,
and inflame our hearts to know You,
to serve You,
and to love You in this life,
that we may merit to find our joy in You eternally in the life to come.

Jesus, most powerful Child,
We implore You again to help us
with the intentions we hold in the depths of our hearts.

Divine Child, great omnipotent God,
I implore through Your most Holy Mother’s most powerful intercession,
and through the boundless mercy of Your omnipotence as God,
for a favorable answer to my prayer during this Novena.
Grant us the grace of possessing You eternally
with Mary and Joseph
and of adoring You with Your holy angels and saints.

Amen.

Day 16: Trusting Christ’s Quiet Growth in Us – From the writings of Caryll Houselander – Discerning Hearts Podcasts

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Day 16: Trusting Christ’s Quiet Growth in Us

It is only necessary to give ourselves to that life, all that we are, to pray without ceasing, not by a continual effort to concentrate our minds but by a growing awareness that Christ is being formed in our lives from what we are. We must trust Him for this, because it is not a time to see His face, we must possess Him secretly and in darkness, as the earth possesses the seed. We must not try to force Christ’s growth in us, but with a deep gratitude for the light burning secretly in our darkness, we must fold our concentrated love upon Him like earth, surrounding, holding, and nourishing the seed.

Commentary:  Caryll Houselander invites us into a deeply contemplative attitude, one where we allow Christ to grow within us naturally, without forcing or striving. She reminds us that prayer is not always a focused effort of concentration but a quiet awareness that He is forming Himself within us, even in darkness. Like the earth holding a seed, we are called to embrace Christ’s presence within, trusting that He is quietly working in the hidden places of our lives. For Catholics, this reflects the contemplative tradition of silent prayer and trust in God’s unseen work within our souls.

Personal Reflection: In moments of prayer today, try to simply rest in God’s presence without striving. Imagine yourself as the earth surrounding and nourishing the growth of Christ within you. How can you deepen your trust in His quiet work, even when you don’t see immediate results?

Houselander quote from:  Caryll Houselander, The Reed of God, Sheed & Ward, 1944


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Day 17 – Suffering – An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart – Discerning Hearts Podcasts

An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart:
Prepare your heart for Christ through Scripture, the saints, and the gentle practice of daily listening.

Part Three: Listening Through Trials, Weakness, and Silence

DAY 17 – Suffering

“For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.”
2 Corinthians 1.5 RSV


Suffering is one of the most difficult interior places for a listening heart. It can come through physical pain, emotional wounds, grief, loss, or the heavy silence that settles during spiritual darkness. Suffering makes prayer feel harder. It can shake confidence and tempt the soul to ask whether God has withdrawn.

Yet Advent reveals something tender and astonishing. Christ enters human suffering not from the outside, but from within. He takes on our poverty, our fragility, and our sorrow so that nothing we endure is ever faced alone. Suffering becomes a place of encounter because it reveals where we need God most.

Suffering is not a sign of God’s distance. It is often the place where His presence begins to deepen. When the heart suffers, distraction falls away. The cry of the soul becomes more honest. The heart reaches toward God with a sincerity that only pain can uncover. Grace often moves quietly here, hidden beneath the weight of the cross.

The discerning heart does not deny suffering. It brings it before Christ. When suffering is surrendered to Him, even imperfectly, it becomes a channel where His love begins to work from the inside.

Journey with the Saints –

St. Elizabeth Ann Seton

“The accidents of life separate us from our dearest friends; but let us not despond. God is like a looking-glass in which souls see each other. The more we are united to him by love, the nearer we are to those who belong to him.”
St. Elizabeth Anne Bayley Seton, Collected Writings, Vol. 3B, p. 42

Today invites you to bring your suffering honestly before Christ. Not the idea of suffering, but the real places that ache. The places that feel heavy or unresolved. The places where you long for healing, clarity, or comfort.

Christ meets you there. Your suffering is not unseen. He holds what feels overwhelming and gathers every tear into His heart. When suffering is offered to Him, it begins to change from within. It becomes a place of communion rather than isolation.

Ask yourself: What suffering weighs on me today. How is Christ inviting me to let Him enter this place.

Reflection for the Listening Heart

Today invites you to notice the places where you feel uncertain or unclear. Confusion can make us want to rush, fix, or force an answer. Yet spiritual wisdom teaches the opposite. Confusion invites us to slow down and let God lead.

Listening becomes deeper in confusion. It is here that the heart learns to be patient. It is here that the soul learns to trust without seeing. Confusion teaches humility, because it shows us that only God can direct our steps.

Ask yourself: Where do I feel confused today. What would it look like to let Christ hold this confusion instead of trying to solve it alone.

A Simple Practice for Today

Choose one real suffering you are carrying and name it before Christ. Say, “Jesus, be with me here.” Return to this phrase throughout the day whenever the ache rises in your heart.

Prayer

Lord Jesus, enter the suffering I carry. Hold what is heavy and heal what is wounded. Help me to feel Your nearness in every sorrow. Teach me to trust that no pain is wasted when it is placed in Your hands. Let my suffering become a place where Your love deepens within me. Amen.


For more of the episodes of
An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart with Kris McGregor visit here


Citations for Day 17

2 Corinthians 1.5 RSV
Elizabeth Bayley Seton, Collected Writings, Vol. 3B, p. 42

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A Christmas Novena Day 1 – Mp3 audio and Text – Discerning Hearts Podcast



Day 1 – Joy
O Lord, infant Jesus, fill us with Joy! The birth of any child is a cause for joy and so much more is the birth of You our Savior. We pray in union with Mary, Your mother, for a greater joy this Christmas.

Divine Infant,
after the wonders of Your birth in Bethlehem,
You wished to extend Your infinite mercy to the whole world
by calling the Wise Men by heavenly inspiration to Your crib,
which was in this way changed into a royal throne.
You graciously received those holy men
who were obedient to the Divine call
and hastened to Your feet.
They recognized and worshipped You as Prince of Peace,
the Redeemer of mankind,
and the very Son of God.

Show us also Your goodness and almighty power.
Enlighten our minds,
strengthen our wills,
and inflame our hearts to know You,
to serve You,
and to love You in this life,
that we may merit to find our joy in You eternally in the life to come.

Jesus, most powerful Child,
We implore You again to help us
with the intentions we hold in the depths of our hearts.

Divine Child, great omnipotent God,
I implore through Your most Holy Mother’s most powerful intercession,
and through the boundless mercy of Your omnipotence as God,
for a favorable answer to my prayer during this Novena.
Grant us the grace of possessing You eternally
with Mary and Joseph
and of adoring You with Your holy angels and saints.
Amen.

DWG8 – Two Modes of Discernment – The Discernment of God’s Will in Everyday Decisions with Fr. Timothy Gallagher – Discerning Hearts Podcast

Two Modes of Discernment – “What am I to do?” The Discernment of God’s Will in Everyday Decisions with Fr. Timothy Gallagher

Fr. Timothy Gallagher continues his teaching on St. Ignatius of Loyola’s three modes of discernment, focusing here on the first and second modes. The first mode is a clarity beyond doubting, in which a person receives an unmistakable certainty about God’s will that cannot be shaken. This is illustrated through vocation stories. Such clarity may arise suddenly or gradually, but remains stable over time. It’s important in confirming this kind of clarity with a wise spiritual guide, especially when the decision involves major life commitments, so that discernment is not carried out in isolation.

When such unmistakable clarity does not occur, St. Ignatius proposes a second mode of discernment, which unfolds through attention to spiritual consolation and spiritual desolation. Father Gallagher explains consolation as interior movements of joy, peace, love of God, and renewed faith, hope, and charity, often accompanied by a sense of God’s closeness. Desolation, by contrast, involves heaviness, confusion, discouragement, and a pull away from spiritual life. Over time, by noticing consistent patterns—how consolation draws the heart toward one option and desolation pushes against it—a person can gain sufficient clarity about God’s direction. Father Gallagher illustrates this with St. Ignatius’s own discernment about poverty in the Jesuits, showing how repeated experiences of consolation consistently pointed him toward one choice, forming the basis of a sound decision.


Discerning Hearts Reflection Questions:

  1. Where in my life have I experienced a clarity that seemed steady and peaceful, and how did I respond to it?
  2. Am I currently facing a decision that invites me to seek God’s will through prayer, the sacraments, and wise counsel?
  3. How do I recognize moments of spiritual consolation in my daily prayer and ordinary activities?
  4. What patterns of heaviness, discouragement, or confusion have I noticed that may indicate spiritual desolation?
  5. When I experience interior joy and peace, which choices seem to draw my heart more deeply toward God?
  6. How do I typically react during times of spiritual dryness, and do those reactions help or hinder my openness to God?
  7. In what ways might keeping track of consolation and desolation over time bring greater clarity to an important decision?
  8. Who is a spiritually wise person I can turn to for guidance when discerning significant choices in my life?

 


From The Discernment of God’s Will in Everyday Decisions:

Three Times in which a Sound and Good Choice May Be Made

The first time is when God Our Lord so moves and attracts the will that, without doubting or being able to doubt, the devout soul follows what is shown to it, as St. Paul and St. Matthew did in following Christ our Lord.

The second time is when sufficient clarity and understanding is received through experience of consolations and desolations, and through experience of discernment of different spirits.

The third time is one of tranquility, when one considers first for what purpose man is born, that is, to praise God our Lord and save his soul, and, desiring this, chooses as a means to this end some life or state within the bounds of the Church, so that he may be helped in the service of his Lord and the salvation of his soul. I said a tranquil time, that is, when the soul is not agitated by different spirits, and uses its natural powers freely and tranquilly.

If the choice is not made in the first or second time, two ways of making it in this third time are given below.”


Father Timothy M. Gallagher, O.M.V., was ordained in 1979 as a member of the Oblates of the Virgin Mary, a religious community dedicated to retreats and spiritual formation according to the Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius.  Fr. Gallagher is featured on the EWTN series “Living the Discerning Life:  The Spiritual Teachings of St. Ignatius of Loyola”. For more information on how to obtain copies of Fr. Gallaghers’s various books and audio which are available for purchase, please visit  his  website:   frtimothygallagher.org

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Day 15: The Sacred Vigil of Love – From the writings of Caryll Houselander – Discerning Hearts Podcasts

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Day 15: The Sacred Vigil of Love

The fostering of an infant’s life is a thing of terror as well as of beauty. We are face to face with life at its most precious, housed in its frailest. That life depends for its survival upon us, upon the intelligence, the skill, the perseverance, the unceasing, untiring vigilance of our love.

It requires of us love that is as strong as the worn and hollowed rock, as delicate as the dew that trembles in it.

We stand on one side of the cradle, death stands on the other. The new life is still a spark, a spark that we kneel to fan with the warm breath of our own life, a spark that death could blow out so easily.

So is it with the Christ-life in each of us and in the world. It is lodged in little ones, in the weakest and puniest, and love and death stand over it, face to face. In the mysterious period of natural life between birth and babyhood, there is a parable of the Christ-life in the soul.

Commentary:  Caryll Houselander draws a powerful parallel between the fragile care required for a newborn and the nurturing of Christ’s love within our souls. She conveys the delicate responsibility we have in fostering the Christ-life, which, like an infant, relies on our unwavering vigilance and love. Just as a newborn depends completely on those who care for it, the life of Christ within us depends on our attentiveness, our perseverance, and our willingness to protect and nurture this divine presence. Houselander reminds Catholics of the awe-inspiring and at times fearsome responsibility of sustaining this spark of Christ’s life, which requires both tender love and strong resilience.

Personal Reflection: Reflect on how you might nurture the life of Christ within yourself and others. How can you protect and foster this divine presence with loving vigilance? Consider small ways in which you can cultivate patience, care, and attentiveness to keep this spark of Christ’s love burning brightly.

Houselander quote from:  Caryll Houselander, The Reed of God, Sheed & Ward, 1944


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Day 16 – Weakness – An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart – Discerning Hearts Podcasts

An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart:
Prepare your heart for Christ through Scripture, the saints, and the gentle practice of daily listening.

Part Three: Listening Through Trials, Weakness, and Silence

DAY 16 – Weakness

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
2 Corinthians 12.9 RSV


Weakness is one of the most vulnerable places in the spiritual life. It is where we feel limited, fragile, unable to do what we desire, or unable to rise in the ways we once could. Weakness is uncomfortable. It exposes how much we need God. Yet Advent teaches us that Christ comes precisely into those places where we feel small.

Weakness is not a defect in the life of prayer. It is an invitation. It draws the heart away from self reliance and into deeper trust. When we feel weak, we slow down. We become more honest. We recognize the truth that we cannot save ourselves. Weakness reveals our poverty and opens us to receive the grace that only God can give.

In weakness, listening becomes sharper. We lean more into God’s voice because we cannot lean on ourselves. Weakness becomes a space of surrender, a quiet recognition that only God can carry what feels beyond us.

Advent reminds us that Christ was born into weakness so that none of our frailty would be foreign to Him.

Journey with the Saints –

St. Thérèse of Lisieux

“It is weakness that gives us confidence, for the strong have no need of being supported.”
St. Thérèse of Lisieux, Manuscript C

St. Thérèse saw weakness not as something to shame, but as the very place where God’s mercy rests most gently. Her Little Way teaches that weakness becomes strength when it is offered to Christ. The weaker she felt, the more she entrusted herself to Him. The less she could rely on herself, the more room there was for God to act.

For St. Thérèse, weakness was not an obstacle to holiness. It was the path to it. She learned that God does not wait for us to be strong. He meets us in our littleness and fills what we lack with His love. Weakness becomes grace when we place it entirely in His hands.

Reflection for the Listening Heart

Today invites you to look gently at your own weakness. Not with frustration or shame, but with honesty. Weakness can reveal where God is trying to reach you. It can show you the exact places where His grace desires to enter.

Do not hide your weakness from Christ. Bring it into the light. Weakness teaches surrender. It teaches patience. It teaches dependence on a God who holds you with tenderness. The listening heart learns to remain open in weakness because Christ is near in every fragile place.

Ask yourself: Where do I feel weak today. How is Christ asking me to trust Him in the place where I feel least capable.

A Simple Practice for Today

Choose one area of weakness and offer it simply to God. Say, “Lord, this is where I need You most.” Later in the day, repeat slowly, “Your power is made perfect here.” Let this truth rest gently within you.

Prayer

Lord Jesus, meet me in my weakness. Fill my limitations with Your strength. Teach me to rely on Your grace rather than my own abilities. Help me trust that You are working in every fragile place of my heart. Let my weakness become a resting place for Your power. Amen.


For more of the episodes of
An Advent Journey for the Discerning Heart with Kris McGregor visit here


Citations for Day 16

2 Corinthians 12.9 RSV
St. Thérèse of Lisieux, Manuscript C

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Day 14: Patience in the Hidden Growth of Sorrow – From the writings of Caryll Houselander – Discerning Hearts Podcasts

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Day 14:  Patience in the Hidden Growth of Sorrow

Sometimes this Advent season of the soul is a recurring rhythm through life, deliberately chosen as such or simply given to us. Sometimes it is the immediate result of conversion or of a new awareness of God or of an increase of Love.

Sometimes it is a painful experience. It may be that a soul brimmed with love becomes dumb, inarticulate, blind, seeing only darkness, unable to give things that it longs to give to a world of children asking for bread.

This simply means that the Holy Spirit of Love, by which Christ was conceived in that heart, is compelling it to suffer the period of growth.

The light is shining in the darkness, but the darkness does not comprehend it.

To a soul in such a condition, peace will come as soon as it turns to Our Lady and imitates her. In her the Word of God chose to be silent for the season measured by God. She, too, was silent; in her the light of the world shone in darkness. Today, in many souls, Christ asks that He may grow secretly, that He may be the light shining in the darkness.

We ought to let everything grow in us, as Christ grew in Mary. And we ought to realise that in everything that does grow quietly in us, Christ grows. We should let thoughts and words and songs grow slowly and unfold in darkness in us.

Commentary:  Caryll Houselander reflects on the “Advent season of the soul” as a time when, even in silence and darkness, Christ grows within us. This hidden growth can be challenging, especially when we feel brimming with love yet find ourselves unable to express or act on it. Houselander encourages us to look to Mary as a model of patient, silent surrender. Just as she held the Incarnate Word in silence and allowed Him to grow within her, we too are called to let Christ grow in us without rushing the process. Even in the moments when we feel unable to give or express ourselves fully, God is at work in our hidden depths, transforming us.

Personal Reflection: Consider a place of silence or frustration in your spiritual life where you feel “in the dark.” How might you imitate Mary’s trust in God’s timing, allowing Christ to grow quietly within you, even if you don’t yet see the fruit? Embrace this season as an opportunity for Christ to unfold slowly in your heart.

Houselander quote from:  Caryll Houselander, The Reed of God, Sheed & Ward, 1944


For more reflections visit:
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